An apology

I felt that it is only right that I apologize to some people that I offended with my last post.

I don't have much time to say everything that I want to say so I will just say the important stuff.

I did not mean to offend or hurt anyone. That was never my intention. I did not try to get anything out of anyone and definitely did not try to deceive anyone.

I did know MJ and I didn't tell ANYONE about it because me and my sister got beat up everyday we went to elementary school because my sister told a girl we knew him and this was a few years after the first molestation case. So I started not trusting anyone because I was afraid it would continue, even my best friend didn't know.

I went to Neverland twice, once when I was 5 and a year later both times I was with my sister. I didn't tell anyone about that because to be honest I didn't remember. My mom and sister were the ones to bring it up and I started remembering some of the things. You see after I huge incident with my family, I pretty much blanked out my childhood. After my sister and mom told me about it, I began remembering some things like: how nice he and his family were, how big Neverland was, and how much financial troubles we were in. My mom said that we went because we were about to lose the house and my parents were too prideful to take money from MJ, so he said fine then let the girls come to Neverland while you sort some things out. We stayed both times for 2 or 3 days. My sister said that I was so shy that when anyone l would talk to me, I would start crying and run to her. I of course don't remember any of it.

Anyway I again apologize to those who were angry at my post. I never intended it to be that way. Once I remembered about Neverland I guess I should have come to you, but I was just as stunned as you were.

For anyone who was angry about something other than the Neverland stuff, I apologize to you as well. You are a good friend and I never meant to write something that would make you angry. I was not angry at you or your family when I wrote the post. I was actually happy, I had the best time at camp.

And to those who helped me get to camp, I want you to know that I really appreciate it.

My first time at camp

This post will be a little long so bare with me.

Monday: I had to get up a 4am so that I would be ready when my ride arrived at 5am. However, they did not get there until 5:30am. We then got off at the wrong exit so we didn't get to camp until 6:30. But they only had 2 people filling up the truck so we didn't leave until 8:45. We dot to camp finally at 10:30. An hour after we arrived and finished packing, we were told to meet them at the flag pole. We got to the flag pole and was told that we were going high roping. I didn't know what that meant but I knew it wasn't a good thing. Finally we got up to where the high roping course was and all of the sudden I couldn't breathe. We walked all the way up and strapped in and told to get on the rope. There was no way I was getting on a little bitty rope and walking. My stomach was hurting (by this time it was 12 and I hadn't eaten since last night and the sun was right on us). I saw a girl named Katie, who was like me and couldn't for the life of her get on the rope, finally conquer it. Finally I got on the rope and walked half way until my stomach told me I wasn't going any farther. However, I had to walk back. The other girls were such pros at it. After that we had free time, so we got in the lake and hung out for the rest of the day.

Tuesday: The other girls came to camp and it was my job to get the 1st years situated. One girl named Kathryn was so shy and so afraid. I felt terrible that she was so scared. I had her hang out with some other first years and saw her changed completely, she was smiling and happy. I was the 1st years that entire day. I also got to conquer canoeing with them.

Wednesday: Presidents Lantz and Mackey came and we had what I liked to call a "spiritual enrichment". It was awesome Lauren was Esther, President Lantz was Joseph Smith, President Mackey was Moses, Brother Johansson was our Prophet, and another woman was Moses Mother. It was awesome. They stayed the night and we all got to talk to them.

Thursday: My branch president came over and gave us a devotional. It was about allowing God to help us when we are having trouble. We also got to take him out and show him the camp. It was very nice having him there.

Friday: In the morning we had testimony morning. All of the girls in our branch got up. I really loved Sophia's testimony. A few other girls went. But most of the people that got up were the leaders. However, it really was awesome. We finally had another free time where we could relax before leaving.

Also while I was there we did have smores and yummy food. I met a lot of girls and got to see all of the different personalities.

While there someone close to my family died and I felt so angry and sad that I couldn't be with my mom. I personally knew MJ. He was friends with both of my parents and he is actually the reason they met. I don't like to talk about him because not everyone was nice to him and I am very sensitive about the matter. He was truly a good person and I remember a lot of times spending my birthdays with him and his family. Since my birthday is a day after his I remember always hanging out with him and his family. I remember plenty of times going to the Neverland ranch for a few birthdays and just wanting to be around him (sorry Hallie for lying about not going to California before, I was just afraid of how you would react). He was the most intelligent person I knew and was always wanting to help everyone. The last time I saw him was last year in February, we just talked and hung out for a hour. He and my parents fell out because he wanted to help us financially but they wouldn't budge, but he told me if I ever needed him he would be here, it might be with a but load of cameras but he would come, and me and my sister felt so great. I am so sad right now words can not explain how sad I am.

If only for a moment

Yesterday while at the library I received an email congratulating me on getting in to Southern Virginia University. I was so happy and couldn't wait to tell my family. After boasting to my family about this huge accomplishment to my family. I realized that I was still at the library and could register right then. They asked me what my student i.d. was and I realized that I didn't receive one in a the email. I called SVU and the admission counselor said that it was a mistake and I am still in the admission process until I get my ACT scores sent to them. Since I only took the test a week ago I still have up to 5 weeks before I get the results.

However, even with that set back I am okay. I got into WCCCD-Eastern Campus for the fall semester. But their webgate is on the fritz. They said that it will be a week or so before it is fixed and registration doesn't start till Monday.

I was also unable to go to Youth Conference this weekend due to my not so smart Gyn. He won't tell me why I have to go to an emergency visit with him until tomorrow. Wish me luck. Hopefully I will be able to go to camp.

Anyway, blogging out.

Accepted

In December I applied to Wayne County Community College District ( WCCCD)- Eastern Campus, because I thought no one else wanted me. Anyway they sent the acceptance letter in January, but somehow I didn't get it until last month. I jumped up and down seeing that it was the first college that accepted me, granted it is only a community college. I felt great and it will be a good stepping stone. I plan to go there for a semester and transfer to a university.

Today I showed it to my uncle and to my surprise my uncle laughed and said that I should be there now because I was accepted to the Spring semester. I called to let them know that I applied to the fall semester and to my dismay the number doesn't work. So now I am at the library trying to find the updated number and so far no such luck. Looks like i am going to have to go up there and talk to a counselor.

I have chosen a field that I want and I will not change my mind. I am going to choose LPN and then go to a college for Anesthesiology and become a Nurse Anesthesist.

If somehow by some miracle I get married I will at least be a LPN in case something happens.


Anyway that is my story and I am sticking to it. At least for now.

Oh and does anyone know how long it takes to be a LPN and does BYU offer that or just RNs?

What I have been up to

I have been sick since Saturday. I went to the Relief Society Enrichment at the Stake Center. I learned about filling your bucket with good things. For some reason if I get in the rain for just a minute I catch a cold and it lasts forever. I think it might last for only a few more days. But because of my cold I missed Mother's Day at the church, I hope it was great.

I memorized the Presidency and 12 Apostles. I even made up a funny song to help me remember it. I also memorized 6 Scripture mastery's in 1 day. I have memorized 11 all together so now I have 14 more to go. But since then I have been trying to remember math stuff like y=mx+b. and the 30-60-90 stuff. I remember most of it.

I finished the fundraiser for camp. However, I could have done a better job.

I read the entire Book of Mormon and finished the Young Women Personal Progress. I can't wait to get my medallion.

I have to finish reading the New Testament now. I have to admit I haven't read much of it. I have been so busy worrying about other stuff. I will get back in the groove of reading though.

My sister had a little boy on April 7th. His name is Sylvester Christopher Anthony Pye. Everyone calls him Babee (Baby).

I am thinking about one day moving to Nevada. I don't know why.

I figure I might wear a wig for the rest of my life because the Psoriasis isn't getting any better.

Anyway, that is what I have been up to.

California

I know. I know. I have been home for a week and two days and I have yet to post about my time in Cali. I have had a lot going on in my small little world. 

  

California was awesome! I got to see and walk the grounds of the Newport Beach, San Diego, and Los Angeles Temples. I also got to go to Distributions (at the San Diego Temple) and Deseret Books. I bought a pocket size hymn book and the hymn on CD.

I got to see and get in the Pacific Ocean. My body never warmed up to its cold temperature. 

We got to go to a lot of shops and see beautiful children clothes. 

I got to go to lots of eateries and eat food like real Californians. I really loved the ice cream at Didi Riese.  

I got to stay at Embassy Suites for 4 days. I really hate elevators but as fate would have it we were on the 5th floor. We got complementary breakfast and a nightly Managers Reception. While there in San Diego we went to Seaport Village where Mike got his Kite. 

Before and after we were at Embassy Suites we stayed with Hallie's parents. They were so nice to me. Hallie's mom gave me sparkling lotion and a pillow case with the Los Angeles Temple on it.

 I also got to meet Hallie's sister-in-law Elise and her two beautiful children. Lily became so close to me, it was like we were best buds. She is so pretty with beautiful gold hair. Emerson is so shy and it was nice to see him warm up to me. His favorite word is 'this' and it is so cute to hear him say it.

While in Simi Valley I got to meet Mike's parents and his two nephews Haydn and Lucas. Haydn is so funny and we got to play with his cars. Lucas was also pretty shy and I only got to see him for an hour or so. 

I got to see 3 horses, Beverly Hills, the Hollywood sign, Rodeo Drive, The Chinese Theatre, and the Hollywood walk of fame (that had creepy impersonators). 

I got to go to church in Thousand Oaks and Simi Valley. The youth in both churches had went to their prom the night before so they had on their beautiful gowns. It made me think about the church prom I was missing by going on the trip. But you can't miss what you never had.

I also got to experience first hand what is widely known as California traffic. It took us so long to get to our destination. 

Our last two days was filled with water thanks to the hot weather. We went to the local pool to cool off. It was so fun seeing the children play in the water. 

However, none of that compares to the beauty of the mountains and flowers. Mike said that I was lucky because California isn't normally that colorful. He said that it is normally brown. While on a bridge I was able to look to my right and see the ocean and look to my left and see the mountains. It was such a breath taking sight. Which is something I hope to see when I start my own family.

Overall my trip to California was great and I hope to have many more trips like it. 

I want to thank Hallie and Mike for inviting me, everyone at the church for making this trip possible by letting me babysit for them, Hallie and Mike's parents for their hospitality, Elise and her family for making the trip fun, and Haydn for being such a great kid.  

The New adventure

Tomorrow I am going to California with Hallie, Mike, and Landon. This will be my first time going on an airplane so I am pretty nervous. I am excited about going to California and seeing if there are any mountains and hills. I look forward to seeing the Hollywood Walk of Fame and many other attractions laid out for me. I wonder if I will see any celebrities, however not the Britney Spears type. I will get to see the San Diego, Los Angeles, and Newport Beach temples while we are traveling. It is wonderful having the feeling of the spirit while on vacation. I thank all of the families for helping me pay for this trip by babysitting. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be able to go. 

While on this trip I will also be able to continue studying for my ACTs with the help of Mike. I will have a lot of girl bonding time with Hallie and maybe we will even talk about boys. I will also learn how to be a mom by helping Hallie with little Landon. I will also learn tricks about being a woman, like shaving my legs. 

I have a list of things to do after I get back:

Studying for and taking my ACTs

Finding an inexpensive Drivers ED course

Talking to a nutritionist

Getting a job

And getting a work out program

Some of these things I will need a little help and encouragement with.

So please feel free to give me some advise.