Almost on the Road

As I write my dad is driving down to come and pick me up. He left Detroit at around 10am. I am hoping that he will be here around 10pm. I checked out of my room yesterday. I went to the financial aid office and my balance for this semester is $702.80 (housing, laundry, and meals). That is a lot cheaper than the $5000+ that we originally thought that I would have to pay. When I get home I will have a job waiting for me- Data Entry for Deseret Industries. I applied to BYU-Idaho for the fall, as a back up I applied to Wayne State University. I got into WCCCD and Oakland Community College for the Summer. I also applied to Washtenaw Community College for the summer; however, I have yet to hear from them. I think that Washtenaw is the college that I really want to go to. It seems so much fun and the summer is fast-paced which I like. Oakland is my next choice. It also seems like I will have fun here.


I do not know what Heavenly Father has in store for me. Mu surgery has been moved to Valentine's Day. I am praying and hoping that things go well. I got a Blessing last night and I have faith that everything will work out. I look forward to my future.

What do you call this again?

Sorry it has taken me so long to give an update. Things have been... well I have no idea what to call this past 2 weeks. I was so excited to be starting a new semester. I had it all planned out: study harder, more fun time, make new friends, and go on dates. And then life happened. Friday I woke up in so much pain- it felt like an evil leprechaun hopped into my side. I could barely move. Saturday and Sunday were not any better. I called my doctor on Monday (with the last phone minutes that I had) and he said that my dermoid cyst must be growing and that I need to have surgery sooner rather than later. He said that if it is growing fast there is a chance that it might rupture and that can be horrible. My mom got in contact with my gynecologist Tuesday and he is scheduling me for an emergency visit (in the hospital) to look at it and if it is as bad as he and the doctor here thinks, I can have the surgery right then. However, there is a 6-8 week recovery period. The doctor here sent my CAT scan from December off to the doctor in Michigan. He believes that the dermoid cyst may have grown on my ovary so bad that I may have to have my ovaries removed. As a result- I am taking a medical leave of absence from school and going home on February 1st. My parents are renting a car to come and get me.

I talked to the financial aid office here and apparently because I will not return until next fall, I will have to start paying off my loans. I have no idea what I am going to do. I cannot come back in the summer because I have to work during the summer to pay for school. They are going to see if there is a way to get out of it. I do not know what I am going to do if I have to pay. ARGH!!! Why can't things go right? I am praying about everything. I know that things will work out. I have to be patient through my trials. Heavenly Father has a plan for me. Oh and 2 weeks before I leave, I meet a very interesting guy. I will let you know how that goes.

Final Grades

My grades are in. I received an A in Information Literacy. I obtained a B- in America and the Enlightenment. I was given a C- in Biology and a C in French. My GPA is a 2.2 my career GPA is a 2.6.

I intend to do much better in French and Biology next semester. General Biology is extremely difficult but I am going to try harder. I did not realize that French III would be so different from French I and II (we could only speak French in class).

I got a Withdrawal from Body Attack because I could not do any of the exercises due to my health. But I did not need the class anyway (I did all of my PE classes, with the exception of Health and Wellness, last year. It was just a fluff class).

Classes and Books needed for Next Semester

This is my schedule for the Spring. Classes start on January 6. I am taking 15 Credits. I will also still be on the Honor Council and hopefully will have a job (if my health permits). Because I do not currently have a job I have not been able to save up money for books. If there is anyone who is willing to help me pay for books I will much appreciate it. These are the classes I am taking and how much each book will cost at the Bookstore on campus. I am willing to rent books from the bookstore if they are allowed and I have given the prices for those books. I have also included the ISBN in case you know of a place where the books are cheaper.

General Biology II- BIO 202 (03)

· Already have books

French IV- FRE 202 (01)

· Sur Le Vif (Audio Program) (w/ 4 CDs) Author :Jarausch Edition:5th
ISBN:9780495809715 $59.50 in bookstore

Western Civilization I- HIS 210 (02)

· Portable Greek Historians Author: Finley

ISBN: 9780140150650 $9.75 rent in bookstore

· Praise of Folly & Other Writings Author: Erasmus

ISBN: 9780393957495 $11.25 used

· GREEK TRAGEDIES VOL I Author: GRENE

ISBN: 9780226307749 $11 used

· Secret Author: Petrarch

ISBN: 9780312154387 $12.50 used

· Divine Comedy (V1:Inferno) Author: Dante

ISBN: 9780142437223 $9.75 used

· Selected Political Speeches Author: Cicero

ISBN: 9780140442144 $7.31 rent in bookstore

· Prince (Intro Viroli) Author: Machiavelli

ISBN: 9780199535699 $5.25 used

Health and Wellness- PER 143 (02)

· Concepts of Fitness & Wellness Author: Corbin

ISBN: 9780073376387 $68.25 used

Introduction to Theatre History- THE 215 (01)

· History of Theatre Author: Brockett Edition: 10^th

ISBN: 9780205511860 $91 Used

· Bedford Intro to Drama Author: Jacobus Edition: 6^th

ISBN: 9780312474881 $52.53 rent in bookstore

· Rabbit Hole Author: Lindsay-Abaire

ISBN: 9780822221548 $7.50 new

The total amount if I get the books from the bookstore is: $345.59.

Dear Body: You are a jerk. Sincerely, Diamond

Well I went to the doctor today. The doctor gave me an ultrasound. We looked on the screen (there is a screen that you can watch as the doctor gives you the ultrasound so you can see what he/she sees) and there is a big image (about the size of a soft ball) of something dark. The last time I was there he thought that it was my bladder. However, after further imaging he could not identify the image. So in the coming weeks I have to go to the hospital to get a CT scan to identify this thing. This is so ridiculous. I dislike my body right now.

Much Better

After the tough week that I had, this past week has been better so far. I spoke to a lot of people who really helped me out. I spoke to President Smith about the situation here and he is helping me and the students become more unified as a school. Of course it will not be perfect (I have come to learn that no one or nothing can be) but at least it can be bearable. I was born a very sensitive person so I get really upset when I hear or see someone saying mean things about someone or something. I know that is something I need to work on. I let things build up until I explode- like last Friday. I apologize if I hurt any one's feelings. It just was a bad week for me. I know that people do not mean to say things that I take as being ignorant. I just felt like the past three weeks had been bash on African Americans. I felt like people thought that it is wrong to be African American. Any way enough with the past. Today I am going to Monticello! Also the movie Inception is playing in the SAC tonight. I am so excited.

Today was a bad day

I and Prisca almost died (thanks to the ice on the stairs that we could not see because of the fog) and things went downhill from there.
I read a comment from a dear friend of mine and it angered me. I LOVE where I come from. The automobile industry is faltering- duh no one can afford to buy a car in this economy. The crime rate is up and our government officials have made ignorant and horrible decisions that made CNN headlines. However, a few rotten apples does not give anyone the right to say that our entire city sucks or make false assumptions about Detroit as a whole or Michigan.
Three forums ago “Service Forum” was about students experiences of travelling abroad and the culture shock of it. How people lived differently. The forum two weeks ago was about Abraham Lincoln and how he was assassinated because he freed the slaves. In this weeks forum he spoke about how the government viewed Mormons as a weird culture. They compared them to Asians and Africans and as a result the Mormons did not allow African American to hold the Priesthood.
Right after that I went to America and the Enlightenment and we spoke about how the philosopher’s views of man and wife did not include Blacks. They were slaves and their “Master” was their father.
My Biology teacher finally gave us our test back and I failed it. It was nothing like the first test. Not only did I fail the lecture test, I also failed the lab test.
At the basketball game there was a Black baby and I got to hold him. He reminded me of my nephew. Then a girl took him from me and would not give him back even though he wanted me and kept putting his arms out to reach for me. She was upset because he did not want her. That was the crappy ending to my day.
No one is unified on this campus. There are two cliques: The Black Non-LDS students. They stick to themselves because the white LDS students judge them. When the laptops got stolen I overheard numerous groups of people saying how they bet the black students had something to do with it. The white Non-LDS students pretend that they are LDS and so the hang out with the white LDS cliques. They are in the “Mormon Bubble” and say ignorant comments like: “Does the African president like basketball because he’s Black”?
Everyday I get to hear about how bad President Barack Obama is. It bothers me; however, when I hear stuff like that is why “some people” should not be president or elected in office period.
My family raised me to love and respect everyone. Especially because of my ancestors and what they had to deal with. One of my closest friends is Hmong. I do not have my family to protect me and help me with this. I just wish that this world will become a better place and that I can learn to take things in stride. However, I doubt this place will get better and I am too sensitive to not have anything affect me.