I must admit that I was not able to get as much out of General Conference as I had hoped. Maybe it was because of all the drama that has surrounded me or simply the fact that I was unable to really get in the "mind-set" for General Conference. I did enjoy a few talks; however, none of them answered the questions that I need answered. I went to General Conference with three HUGE questions and not one was brought up. I do know that Heavenly Father loves me and will eventually answer them; however, I only have three weeks before school is over.
Yesterday I had the worst night of my life and there was noone to help me. Of course I did not ask for help (granted it was 10pm and I was not going to wake some one up). My roommate was skyping someone so I could not ask for her advice. It does not matter anyway because there is nothing that she would have been able to do. I do not have any minutes on my phone so I could not phone anyone.
After crying my eyes out and saying a heartfelt and teary-eyed prayer, I managed to pull my together and go to the library. I was able to read my Patriarchal Blessing and my notes from General Conference. It really did help me out. I was able to feel Heavenly Father's love for. I know that He knows who I am and what I am going through. He will show me the right way and will help me to feel loved and appreciated in my family. He will guide me to the right direction and will show me what I need to do. I will have a place to stay this summer and I will be able to get a job so that I can pay the $1800 that I owe for the fall semester. I will forgive my family and not be so angry at them. I know that everything will work out. It has to.
