Dear Body: You are a jerk. Sincerely, Diamond

Well I went to the doctor today. The doctor gave me an ultrasound. We looked on the screen (there is a screen that you can watch as the doctor gives you the ultrasound so you can see what he/she sees) and there is a big image (about the size of a soft ball) of something dark. The last time I was there he thought that it was my bladder. However, after further imaging he could not identify the image. So in the coming weeks I have to go to the hospital to get a CT scan to identify this thing. This is so ridiculous. I dislike my body right now.

Much Better

After the tough week that I had, this past week has been better so far. I spoke to a lot of people who really helped me out. I spoke to President Smith about the situation here and he is helping me and the students become more unified as a school. Of course it will not be perfect (I have come to learn that no one or nothing can be) but at least it can be bearable. I was born a very sensitive person so I get really upset when I hear or see someone saying mean things about someone or something. I know that is something I need to work on. I let things build up until I explode- like last Friday. I apologize if I hurt any one's feelings. It just was a bad week for me. I know that people do not mean to say things that I take as being ignorant. I just felt like the past three weeks had been bash on African Americans. I felt like people thought that it is wrong to be African American. Any way enough with the past. Today I am going to Monticello! Also the movie Inception is playing in the SAC tonight. I am so excited.

Today was a bad day

I and Prisca almost died (thanks to the ice on the stairs that we could not see because of the fog) and things went downhill from there.
I read a comment from a dear friend of mine and it angered me. I LOVE where I come from. The automobile industry is faltering- duh no one can afford to buy a car in this economy. The crime rate is up and our government officials have made ignorant and horrible decisions that made CNN headlines. However, a few rotten apples does not give anyone the right to say that our entire city sucks or make false assumptions about Detroit as a whole or Michigan.
Three forums ago “Service Forum” was about students experiences of travelling abroad and the culture shock of it. How people lived differently. The forum two weeks ago was about Abraham Lincoln and how he was assassinated because he freed the slaves. In this weeks forum he spoke about how the government viewed Mormons as a weird culture. They compared them to Asians and Africans and as a result the Mormons did not allow African American to hold the Priesthood.
Right after that I went to America and the Enlightenment and we spoke about how the philosopher’s views of man and wife did not include Blacks. They were slaves and their “Master” was their father.
My Biology teacher finally gave us our test back and I failed it. It was nothing like the first test. Not only did I fail the lecture test, I also failed the lab test.
At the basketball game there was a Black baby and I got to hold him. He reminded me of my nephew. Then a girl took him from me and would not give him back even though he wanted me and kept putting his arms out to reach for me. She was upset because he did not want her. That was the crappy ending to my day.
No one is unified on this campus. There are two cliques: The Black Non-LDS students. They stick to themselves because the white LDS students judge them. When the laptops got stolen I overheard numerous groups of people saying how they bet the black students had something to do with it. The white Non-LDS students pretend that they are LDS and so the hang out with the white LDS cliques. They are in the “Mormon Bubble” and say ignorant comments like: “Does the African president like basketball because he’s Black”?
Everyday I get to hear about how bad President Barack Obama is. It bothers me; however, when I hear stuff like that is why “some people” should not be president or elected in office period.
My family raised me to love and respect everyone. Especially because of my ancestors and what they had to deal with. One of my closest friends is Hmong. I do not have my family to protect me and help me with this. I just wish that this world will become a better place and that I can learn to take things in stride. However, I doubt this place will get better and I am too sensitive to not have anything affect me.