I have been trying to come up with a way to say everything within the confines of the blog. I don't really know what to say other than I made it! I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who stands right by me. I have always been the person who falters or runs away in the midst of trail or turmoil. I do not like drama and I never like being the center of attention. The beginning of the semester has been an adventure. I must admit that I have been at my highest highs and my lowest lows all in one.
Just when I wanted to give up and call it quits the Lord engulfed me with his protecting arm. I don't know how he does it! I was at my low point and a very inspired woman invited me to go to the temple with her. I stepped into the temple and immediately was engulfed with an overwhelming feeling of love.
Doctrine and Covenants 18:10-11 really encompasses how I felt that day. I felt so important, numbered and loved. I can imagine how Christ suffering in Gethsemane applied to me. When He suffered, he literally felt everything that I ever have, do, or will feel. His life was real and it was for me.
I have been studying from a packet that President Wilson (my last mission president) gave to the departing missionaries. It has been a comfort. I can see the person that I am becoming. Even in those horrid times when I feel alone, I know that I am not. I am so grateful to have served a mission so that I can lean on the testimony that I gained from there. It has been wonderful to actually trust in the person that I am becoming and to see the transformation that 18 months of service has provided.
I tried out for and got into the Academy of Comedy Group and we performed the other day. I have no desire to be a full-time comic. I did it because I wanted to find new friends and be involved on campus. I love being part of this university because I can dabble in anything and still be a disciple of Jesus Christ. I told jokes about who I am and doing that I really got to see my progression in life. I am actually happy and I am stronger than I ever have been in my entire life.
In the end, these last three weeks have been a spiritual strengthening experience.
